I’m in one of those strange moods today. You know the ones. Not feeling good, in deep thought over something you can’t even remember thinking about anymore.
A thought crashes into my mind and I can feel it reverberate around my skull: did you have a good day?
I think back through my day and try to determine whether it was a good day or not.
What even is a good day? If a good day simply means nothing bad happening, then yes. Today was a some what alright day.
Apart from a few hiccups at work, nothing overly terrible happened today.
And this thought really got me thinking. I might have down days, everyone has down days. That doesn’t necessarily make it a bad day. It is still just a day, like the day before and the day to follow.
Life isn’t as black and white as good and bad. Life falls on a spectrum and the good and the bad can come in many different shades.
I think I have fallen somewhere in the middle the last few months and I’m slowly moving toward the lighter end of a very large scale.
It takes time to get back to the version of yourself you were when you were furiously sliding down the darker end of the scale.
The mind is a funny thing. It easily forgets the good times, but has no trouble at all in remembering the bad.
Why do we do this to ourselves? Is it a conscious effort on our part or is it our mind playing games with us?
Today and for the past few weeks, I’ve been gradually climbing the scale and I couldn’t be more happier.
Some days are still a struggle, but I no longer feel like I’m in the dark, wandering around with my hands out trying to find the light switch.
I guess the light has been on dimmer for some time. Eventually the light will fade, but that won’t be for years to come.
Embrace the light while you can. It’s the most important thing you will ever do.
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